Author: 瀬川・サファイア

In Loving Memory of Terry J (1 Feb 1942 – 21 Jan 2020)

I love Monty Python. Always have, always will.

The Meaning of Life was one of the first things I ever watched in English while still in High School. I’ve seen all episodes of Flying Circus more times than I can remember (and, amusingly, know them and their works waaay better than my – British – boyfriend XDD).

Their surreal, weird and entertaining antics made me laugh when I was feeling lonely. I don’t think I’d be where (and who) I am had it not been for them and Monty Python would clearly not haven been what it was without the naked guy at the piano.

Thanks for all you’ve done, Mr. J!

Random shit that makes me happy

My favourite doujin singer (Takahito “Rute” Koshida, right) and Zun (left) the guy who is responsible for both the Touhou series of games and its amazing music (and remixes).

Dr. Tracey Marks – Understanding Avoidant Personality Disorder

I’ve been diagnosed with APD (and social anxiety but this post is mostly about the former) in 2008. Sometimes, it’s hard to explain to people not suffering from mental illness what this actually entails and what it means for your daily life and the challenges you face.

I haven’t been following Dr. Marks for long (I discovered her via Dr. Grande‘s channel about which I’m going to talk in a separate post – or several – some time in the future) and the video about APD contains some of the most concise and clear descriptions of the disorder I’ve ever seen. I encourage anyone who suffers from – or knows someone who suffers from – avoidant personality disorder to give this video a watch. I’m sure you’ll learn something about yourself or your loved one.

Fave YouTubers: Brooke Makenna

Alright. You guys know I love true crime podcasts, yes? Cool!

Nothing like a creepy murder story to entertain you on a boring commute or a monotonous stretch at work (yay for my new job that actually encourages us entering our own little bubbles if we need to). I’ve learned so much and love getting my audio fix from more than just music.

But did you know I also spent ungodly amounts of time watching true crime channels on YouTube? Indeed!

One of my more recent discoveries is Brooke Makenna.

For one, I just love her voice. It’s exactly the kind of soothing tone that makes you relax (which is a bit weird considering she talks about people getting killed or abducted but never mind that XDD). Then, she’s just so sweet and kind to her viewers, despite (or maybe because of?) the scary subject matter. The cases she picks are always interesting, well-researched and narrated.

So if you’re into true crime at all, give her channel a try!

Strange Planet

I git into this clever and hilarious comic last year, just as the book was about to be released.

And then, just as I was buying Christmas presents, I found out that there would be a German translation out in early December and so I gave a copy of that to my dad, who loved it just as I had expected.

The book is amazing (about half of it is comics that were previously unreleased!) and I can also recommend the German version which is really well done, too and I was positively surprised how well the “alienspeak” works in my native language.

I also recommend following Nathan W. Pyle (the artist) on Twitter or Instagram as he posts brand-new pages all the time (like the recent one above).

Well, that went absolutely terribly in every way possible

Sooo, on New Year’s Eve, best bf and me I ruined one of my two remaining kitchen bowls by the way of the rogue wax – I swear, lead pouring* was somehow less destructive back when it involved real lead. Anyway. I decided to grab a new set on amazon, hoping it’d be the usual painless “ordered on Wednesday, received on Friday” kind of affair.

However, today, when I came back from work, this had happened:

Cool. I had a problem like this last year and the package never resurfaced. At least this time, it’s something I’m getting for myself instead of a goddamn birthday present. That was rather annoying 😐

By far my favourite part of this passive-aggressive little message is the bit at the end, where DHL is making sure to remind you that your shit is probably fucked and you have no means whatsoever to do anything about it.

This is also indicative of the very German sentiment of “You’re our customer and we depend on you because you make us money but we actually hate your guts and would rather not have to deal with you at all”. That or “It’s us who screwed up but we’ll make you feel bad about it because – you guessed it – we hate you”.

Guess I’ll wait for a few days to see what happens but right now, it looks like “Ordering New Bowls, The Unnecessary But Entirely Inevitable Sequel” will be on the agenda shortly.

* A little custom we Germans like to partake in on New Year’s Eve, whereby you pour molten wax (or lead, before we knew health was a thing) into a bowl of water and try to identify the shape it makes, divining your future for the coming year… either that or making a horrible mess and not finding the thing you made on the little solutions sheet that comes with the kit (Yes, I think that’s more what actually happens). The German word for is is “Bleigießen” – or “Wachsgießen” for the modern, hopefully less poisonous version.

Being sad =/= being an asshole

So a few days ago, I received an e-mail from the two girls who run (or ran, see below) Punktkariert* Germany’s biggest Bullet Journal community.

In it, Lea and Theresa announced they won’t be continuing the project any longer (meaning the site will stay online but there won’t be any more new content) and they’ll be shutting down the Facebook group at the end of January as well. They told us they’re planning to concentrate on other aspects of their life (graduating from university and traveling the world).

Obviously, this was a bit of a shock to me – I’d participated in most of their year-end series of online workshops (and a few before that) which was a ton of fun and also recently bought their book which is completely lovely. So yes, definitely not a piece of happy news. However, I’d rather fall over dead than stoop to the level of some of the commenters who inevitably came out of the woodwork after the announcement.

People were like “Why do you spring this on us out of the blue and without warning?” and “It’s like you suddenly felt like doing this without thinking it through” and “This seems fishy, after all the workshops and things you were doing only a few weeks ago” and “Why not just let stuff run itself instead of actually closing down the community?”

I’m sure there’s no correct way to announce something like this. Someone’s always gonna complain. But the accusatory tone some of the people used? Ridiculous. A lot of the material on the page – not to mention the community itself – was free and it takes time to maintain all of that so bitching when people change their priorities (which they’re 150% entitled to doing) is just dumb. Kinda reminded me of why I barely communicate on the ‘net these days and have pretty much given up on the community aspect of fandom. Well, having a full-time job and a household to run probably also has something to do with it but anyway XDD

I myself would like to sincerely thank the two amazing ladies for their work on the site and community. I wish them all the best and hope life and everything else works out wonderfully for them.

* In case you’re wondering, “punktkariert” is simply the German word for the lovely and very useful dot grid that’s prevalent in most BuJos (including all of the ones I have ever used)

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